Former hardcore pessimist, chronically depressed, addict, non-believer, skeptic, weak, suicidal, broken mess, etc. until suffering a trilogy of traumas within a 3 month period at the age of 28 .. That year, in 2012= i was diagnosed with ‘PTSD’; (1) isolated, (2) prolonged .. spent close to 7 months ‘Agoraphobic’ ((fear of the outdoors)) .. AND, .. felt/had my life change .. my ENTIRE “ME” change in an instant, a moment !!
= a “Spiritual Awakening”. ..amidst an angry and resentful rant at God. — There i was, my arms .literally. raised up in a – ‘Y’ – i was screaming out loud: “WHY?!” .. “WHY?!” .. “WHY?!”. Why all of the epic tragedies’/battles/suffering i’d endured since i could remember ?! .. A ((?)) i’d demanded an answer/ explanation to for all my life!! = and out of nowhere i felt a wave of peace wash over me; beginning at the top of my head — down to the very tips of my toes .. sending my arms down with it .. and rendering me silent. … it was in that very moment that i got my answer — no, i KNEW my answer .. and i’d had it all along = because: “EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON”.
There was NO OTHER explanation for the heinousness i’d endured! NONE. …Truth is: it had been far too simple and lacking in evidence for me.. Each time i’d been told that in the past, it gave me no comfort or reprieve!! In fact, it usually made me feel worse! **i now understand the reason behind that = the person SAYING IT did not believe it whatsoever, ..and neither did i.. It was always just “a line” to me. As humans, i think it’s difficult for us to ask the hard questions, and place trust in the easy answers. Leading up to that moment, i simply could not fathom how any pain or suffering ((mine or others)) could benefit me in any way! i couldn’t see how anything good could come out of all the bad and ugly in this life.. . **BUT! Now?! — now, i KNOW = i know firsthand that the good .. the bad .. and *especially* the ugly all happen in order to: strengthen our souls .. offer a vital lesson .. be the catalyst for change, self-transformation and discovery.** i am the utterly complete and total OPPOSITE from the person i described to you in my very first sentence. NIGHT and DAY !!
..and here i stand = 5 years later, with a testimony that i believe i am suppose to share with you .. and a secret to navigating life, .. one that God & the Angels offer us daily, in order to communicate Divine guidance/ wisdom/ support/ spiritual growth/ understanding/ etc.! — a path to enlightenment that i am suppose to translate and teach others. To hopefully teach you!
= HOW TO “READ THE SIGNS”, ( messages, symbols, synchronicities ) that exist all around us each and every day!! **Since my signs will be completely different from yours = i believe that providing a detailed account of my own personal experiences & examples ((past & present)) will allow you to apply what you’ve learned into your own life ..so that it makes sense to: you! All you need is: an open mind .. knowing how to recognize ‘gut feelings’ (intuition) .. and an empty notebook! … i welcome all — *especially* the skeptics & non-believers !! ..for if you recall = i was formerly perhaps the biggest of them all.
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